I’m smarter than my GPA…

Ugh. I’m so frustrated. I’m so fucking done with this semester. I feel like a total nut job. A total loser and dumb as hell. I promise I’m smart. I swear I am. I only regret not letting it show on my transcript.

I wish Universities didn’t have to judge us based on a piece of paper with a rounded number that is supposedly defining our intelligence level. I wish they could just sit me down and we could just talk about all sorts of things. I promise I’m smart enough. I promise I am good enough for your school.

Sit down and talk to me about war, politics, psychology, sociology, fashion industry, medical terminology; anything, dammit. Just hear me out. Listen to me and I promise you I am smart. I know that GPA is important and transcripts are everything, but what about those who cheat their way up? Their transcripts are worshiped. They get accepted into the most prestigious universities and still cheat themselves up. Why?

I’m not the smartest, but I am smart enough. I’m a quick learner, and I study hard when I really need to. No, I’m not as focused as I should be. Because fuck imaginary numbers.

But man, I know a lot of things that my transcript fails to show. I only wish people knew that. I only wish scouts and university recruiters knew that.

I wish more people could get a better chance at this world. But transcripts screw us all over. People drop out because of what they see on their transcripts. Lack of motivation is what its called. I just wish Schools and jobs could look at others beyond what’s on the transcripts, beyond an ACT/SAT score.

-Danna

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Becoming Vegetarian

Holy shizzzz, I haven’t even wrote about it. :O

Well hello, My name is Danna and I am 7 months clean. -of meat. My decision to become vegetarian is really not all that hard to explain. About 8 months ago I picked up a book from one of my favorite authors; Jonathan Safron Foer. It’s called Eating Animals. Man, The things he writes. The things he says. Just the fact of the situation itself..

Chicken is fucking delicious. I said it. I am not at all sensitive on that subject. Chicken is yummy in my stummy. It was 7 months ago, anyway. I wanted to try the whole vegetarian thing. I imagined it was going to be difficult, but never did I think it was gonna be impossible. It has become such a major thing in my life. After reading the book I sat down and pondered about those silly vegetarians missing out on grandma’s delicious pork. Then bam. I told myself, ‘hey if they can do it for years, I can do it for 60 days.” And there it was. In April, I challenged myself to a 2 month vegetarian trial. -just to see how a mess I would be without chicken or pork. (I’m not much of a steak eater.) I said only 2 months. *rolls eyes* How hard could it be. Just 2 months. 60 days. I thought.

Well here I am, 7 months without meat. I feel fantastic. I feel so accomplished and I do feel proud of myself. Wanna know a secret? Without trying, I lost about 6-7 pounds. 2 pant sizes. 😀 I wasn’t really looking for that kind of progress at all. Just simply to strengthen my will power.

Well, its mighty strong because on Thanksgiving dinner, this was on my plate: Mashed Potatoes, green beans, pasta annnd TURKEY. I started eating my mashed patatoes, and pasta and so on, but as I kept forking my turkey, I could not bring myself to eat it. I’d bring it towards my open mouth but something stopped me. Aside from my cousin taunting me with “Oooof. You wont be able to say you’re vegetarian, now.” or “Man, you’re gonna have to start you’re counting all over again.” I was getting a bit hot. As I was munching on my green beans, I told myself that I didn’t have to eat it if I didn’t want to, nor did I have to miss out on it if I didn’t want to. I finished my plate and left my turkey there.

I didn’t feel too good about telling grandma, that I’d be passing on her turkey this year, but she smiled and said it was fine. So see, it was a perfect Thanksgiving.

I have been clean for 7 months. And I feel fantastic. I think I’ll stop once I hit a year, but I can’t really say, you know?  But I do plan on indulging in some beef burgers once my grandpa comes back and cooks for me. And you know what? Before or after that, I want to challenge myself to a 2 month Vegan lifestyle. Ha. we’ll see.

Just remember, you are only as strong as you train yourself. I have had to go through some pretty cruel times becoming a vegetarian, but I am well adapted now. Though at times, I do miss chicken in my salad or in my pasta, nothing compares to my strength. I’m pretty proud of myself.

So all of you meat eaters, Try it. Even if its for 2 weeks. You’ll be pretty surprised.

i must admit though, I need vegetarian friends… Midnight dinings with my BFFS aren’t treating my mind too well. Ha. (:

And to those vegetarians out there: Much respect to you.

-danna

Slacking.

Hey followers!

I am soooo sorry I haven’t been posting. For some reason I keep thinking I have been busy, but we all know; that’s no excuse. When I really think about it, I haven’t been as busy as I wish I could have been.

Let me catch you up on a few things. By list of course, and I promise to hit the topic individually, soon!

1. I can freely drop the “Army” subject once in a while to my family -just not at the dinner table. I guess you can say that’s  progress… *shrugs shoulders*

2. This year was my first VEGETARIAN Thanksgiving. …wait, did I ever tell you that I was? Boy, do we have lots to talk about!

3. Renewing for my EAC has been a pain in my ass and apparently everyone else’s ass too.

4. I have managed to stay unfocused with school. *rolls eyes* I know, I know.

5. Why is there a huge space btwn 3 & 4. bleh, the obsession will now control my life.

6. Boyf and I have been on some pretty good terms lately. ..if ya catch my drift. (; {not every wink is a dirty wink, ya nasty.}

7. I am going to start my own YouTube channel.

8. I’m seeing my lawyer soon about my decision to join the Army. *happy dances*

There. I had to leave it on an even number, because odd numbers are just… well, odd!

Keep writing bloggers and keep reading fellow SWS-ers.

-danna